If I had to describe how I feel today in the guise of a succinct cliche, I would have to pen the phrase "a day late and a buck short." I feel like I am spinning my theoretical wheels and getting no where. Although I am in the best of spirits, I am finding myself constantly smashing up against unintelligible opposition and it is driving me nuts! Now more so than ever I am finding myself in a place where I can recognize what I want, but I am finding myself at the extreme disadvantage of not being able to voice my desires, for whatever reason.

On my (late) way to work this morning I was listening to this one particular CD and I found myself near tears at something so silly. The even worse part about this emotional meltdown is that I know these feelings I stirred up are mostly just projections of stress in my life and not a reality. After coming to terms with that fact, I was more frustrated than ever...I hate how I do that to myself -- shift my stress away from the surface and into something that isn't even a problem. Although I have been doing this less, it still occurs, and I need to find a better way to let go...be prepared for some more intense blogs to follow...

I am excited for all the changes in my life. I know they are all for the best. I have eased some of my fears of living alone and realized it is going to happen sooner than later...it is all just part of growing up...