Things were working out too well for a while there...and now, in accordance with my pendulum theory, things are swinging in the opposite direction. Don't be fooled by my incessant melodrama...my life is good and I am a brat for complaining and being in a funk...but I honestly feel like I have slipped through the cracks with some things and I hate getting left behind more than anything else...

In a nutshell, things that have been promised to me have been delegated to others, which simply infuriates me. Don't tempt me with something and then rip it away in one fell swoop...I need to summon the courage for me to get off my ass and to move on, but it is so hard to break out of what is routine and comfortable. I vented to Luis at lunch - and I definately feel better about things...but I still feel like I have been partially deflated...Not to jump on the "whoa is me" train, because that is stupid and this problem is fixable...It is just up to me to do something about it...

I just wish I could figure some things out...or rather, I just wish the things I figured out happened the way I want them to...(shit, how naive do I sound....)