Electrifying Ennui...

7:46 on a Tuesday night...What's a girl to do...

**Caution! What follows is merely me venting about nothing and everything all at once...it was mostly written as stream of consciousness, so either read it with a 'grain of salt', or move on to the next, more interesting, and certainly more cogent blog. **

I find myself questioning everything as of late - which I suppose is a normal response given recent circumstances - but a frustrating one nonetheless...I have reached an alarmingly poignant epiphany - one which the layman would have seen as obvious quite some time ago...But for some reason, it took me a little longer to achieve this conclusion. I have spent the better part of the last 2 months dwelling in an abyss of funkiness and lacking motivation to complete even the most base tasks...I began to lose sight of purpose in the daily mundane activities of which one needs to complete in order to lead a productive existance...I was unable to conceptualize or rationalize my way out of various atrocities...until this weekend...I have embraced the postulate that worrying about things that are no longer in my scope of control cannot and will not alter what is meant to be...Simply put: being mopey, pouty, teary-eyed, upset, and angry will not change what is destined to happen...Inner strength springs eternal from this very essence of thought...And so, I have emerged from my clouded state of disenchantment...And awakened to all that is possible...The control freak in me is finally on a hiatus....

Enough drivel...

As an aside, a person from my past has made a reappearance. I think we have become reaquainted for a reason... a family friend - of whom I used to refer to as 'my brother' - has gotten back in touch with me...I haven't talked with/seen him in over 6 years, and I am looking forward to 'my brother' being in my life as an adult...I don't keep in good touch with too many people from my Solvang days, so it is nice to relate to 'family'...Even my mom has been in touch with him, which is awesome.



Here is a recap of what I have been up to:
Friday night Luis and I went to go see Less than Jake at the Roxy in Hollywood. This was one of the best shows I have been to in quite sometime - AND, I took my pic with one the members (or as I like to call him, dreds) :)
I needed to go out and drink profusely and listen to some damn good music with my fella...All in all it was super cathartic.

Saturday, Luis, Silvia, Patrick and I went to Bakersfield for Stacey & Lee's wedding - details to follow.