Song of the week:"The Scene is Dead" by We Are Scientists

Just a few rambling musings on my mind...nothing of any importance or particular interest...

I have come to a realization: I MUST write for a music magazine at some point in my life...either my own pub or someone else's...but it must happen...And the longer I live in "The Orange Curtain", the more I feel an itch to move to LA..an itch I think I will need to scratch sooner than later...I found a KILLER job I could apply to in Pasadena today...It was right up my ally...But alas, I am stuck in my job...I can't up-and-leave them again so soon after coming back...That would be some shit...and some bad karma too, me thinks...

Speaking of work, I have been pulling disgusting hours...My boss had to make me go home today so I wouldn't puke at my desk. (An intense headache from staring at the computer for 10 straight hours - for the third day in a row - will do that to you.) But what was validating: she actually thanked me for busting my ass...And from her, that means a LOT. The old addage is true that you should be careful what you wish for...I wanted a job that forced me to think and use my brain...and let me tell you - I sure as shit have it...So, I suppose I should stop my bitching and deal with it - this is all self-induced.

So, despite living in chaos, life has been relatively good...I have decided to let go of some "demons", if you will...and I feel so much better about EVERYTHING...Life is far too short to have to stress about everything. And I have been incredibly worn out from trying to defend and explain my life and my choices to far too many people that I have decided I am just going to do what is best for me...The other junk always falls into place...And if people can't take the fact that I am happy - screw them. I don't need to do what everyone else has done to make it my own. You only walk this path once - and some of us have a much shorter walk than others - so I am going to stop and smell what ever damn flowers I choose. (whew...)

I have been attempting to flow the "espanol" con mi novio todos los dias...pero es mas dificil - especialmente que cuando estoy escribiendo en espanol mi cerebro esta muy cansada y no puedo pensar en igles bien en vez de espanol...(that was for you, babe.) :)

In the spirit of making my 2006 a year of "making 25 look good while living dangerously with adventure" (which I generally will just shorten to say "making 25 look good", upon which my friend Eve-Marie makes complete fun of me for being a lame ass), I have spent more time on the motocicleta...(sp?) which i must say, i have become utterly enamored...(so go ahead, everyone - call me a hypocrit...I deserve it.) I still worry from time to time about the bike, seeing as it carries precious cargo of mine (my boyfriend)...but it is damn fun...

And for my last trick: I have started something funny at work that has somewhat stuck, so to speak. We have our share of random jovialities and traditions at the Beacon. One of which being the crab (story to come in another post). I have officially started a new one: "The Ass Hat". If someone does something completely retarded, they get "The Ass Hat" for the week. I think I spoke with the most illiterate financial from Bank of New York last friday...and I have written documentation to prove it...So it is hanging in the kitchen at the office, in red ink printed atop the page "And the Ass Hat goes to..."

Hehe, that cracks me up...

Enough rambling...I'm gonna end it here....(and I am sure any who was so brave as to get this far into this post is heaving a fattie sigh of relief.)

I'm out.