The world's biggest THANK YOU! is owed to the men who made my move possible!! I love you guys!!

I am finally in my new digs -- and lovin it...it is a cute apartment and once i have everything where i want it, it will be absolutely perfect.

So, I watched the final episode of "Sex and the City" last night...I have to say that when it concluded I was filled with this overwhelming sense of appreciation for those in my life I have been blessed to get close to over the years. I know that sounds cheesy, but the show refreshed my senses and made me take a look at my friends and loved ones and realize how great I really do have it! It also reminded me not to take for granted what I have around me...I felt humbled and revived all at the same time...I know, it is kinda weird that a television show made me feel this way, but for some reason I connected with the overall sentiments of the show...I guess it just hit home with a bunch of issues that I had been stewing over for a long time.

So, Jules lives in LA now, which is exciting but strange all at the same time...while we were packing up the kitchen together on thursday night we were talking about how we had lived together almost 3 years and it is strange that we aren't going to be across the hall from each other anymore. Although things were strained at times, I have to say our friendship definately grew stronger by being roommates.

It is so funny how quickly life can change...

i have been too stressed out for the last week and i need to put an end to the madness! so, i am making my vow here in my blog: life is too damn short to be this stressed out -- everything will fall into place when it is right

failure: that is the word which best describes today...

i am such a lop today it is border-line ridiculous...

for a split second i actually thought i was going to get fired...

fun times...

Quick recap!!

Friday: Went to Olive Garden with Luis, Dustin, Eric, Yvonne, & Thomas and spent a considerable amount of time hanging out there while our waitress became increasingly flustered with the large party seated adjacent to our table. After, ELH...If you were involved, then you know -- and it was rad! :)

Saturday: Took the notary test, shopped for valentine's goodies, went to Jules's Bon Voyage, hung out with the fellas and Yvonne for an attempt at "Shanghi Nights" drinking game.

Sunday: Went to Diamond Bar for amazing food and excellent conversation. The Sanchez Family is sooooooo sweet!!

Monday - Wednesday: Loppiness effective immediately...I have done nothing exciting or productive. I have been sleepy early and capitalizing on that sensation by getting a few early nights.

Tomorrow: Girls night with Sil-Dogg...she needs some vent time -- too much drama in her life...

Friday: Lunch with G&P...Later, possibly shopping, we shall see.

Saturday: hehehehe, you know. :) but before , i shall transform myself!!! say good bye to being blonde!!

Sunday: anniversary :) ... hopefully I can be successful with my plan...

Monday: President's Day!! No Work!! but I have to box up my life in preparation for the great relocation...

For now: I just wanna hang out with friends tonight -- I am tired of being anti-social...


As an aside: my parents are thinking of moving to the East Coast when they retire...my question: Uh, WHY?!

Can you tell I have been making lists ad nauseum?? Damn, work is starting to trickle into my daily life...

I am such a control freak...about things to which people normally don't give a second thought...I realize my limitations and how I need to let fate just take over with certain things, but I am not a very trusting person...thus, I get scared about nothing...

on a side note: valentine's day is in a week :) yay!!

If I had to describe how I feel today in the guise of a succinct cliche, I would have to pen the phrase "a day late and a buck short." I feel like I am spinning my theoretical wheels and getting no where. Although I am in the best of spirits, I am finding myself constantly smashing up against unintelligible opposition and it is driving me nuts! Now more so than ever I am finding myself in a place where I can recognize what I want, but I am finding myself at the extreme disadvantage of not being able to voice my desires, for whatever reason.

On my (late) way to work this morning I was listening to this one particular CD and I found myself near tears at something so silly. The even worse part about this emotional meltdown is that I know these feelings I stirred up are mostly just projections of stress in my life and not a reality. After coming to terms with that fact, I was more frustrated than ever...I hate how I do that to myself -- shift my stress away from the surface and into something that isn't even a problem. Although I have been doing this less, it still occurs, and I need to find a better way to let go...be prepared for some more intense blogs to follow...

I am excited for all the changes in my life. I know they are all for the best. I have eased some of my fears of living alone and realized it is going to happen sooner than later...it is all just part of growing up...