11.12.2005

"I give myself to you now from the essence of my being..."

I have been inspired as of late and listening to multi-cultural, uber-poetic music...It may sound cliche, but music really can free the soul...I tend to follow a specific pattern: when life gets rough and I am stressed I bury myself in music...(Hence, the Matisyahu reference.)

What's been going on in my little world since my last post, you ask? Well, a whole hell of a lot of work...a ton of eating...some TV watching...oh, and the rest of my time has been spent sleeping...That's right kids, I have been leading a very simple existance...In about two weeks work will mellow and I can go back to having a little more fun during the week - but it has been so hard to want to do anything at night when I get home...laundry, cleaning my apartment, checking the mail...all this stuff tends to suffer a bit...thankfully, however, I can see the end of this road...my last performance report has to be mailed out on Nov. 29th, so I guess you can say I am on the home stretch.

Speaking of performance reports, I swear I thought I was going to blown a gasket on friday over a report that was dropped on my plate at the last minute...after a few trans-atalantic calls, i finally was able to reconcile my returns...but oddly enough it was the local folks that held me back in actually finishing before I left. I may have to go in tomorrow...blah...

Rumor has it I may be cooking Thanksgiving dinner at my apartment...should be interesting - especially considering I dont really cook...

I am even bored by typing this...

I will end my post with a mishmash of lyrics...

"You see, you're all that I have and all that I need - each and everyday I pray to get to know you please - want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry - You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty - without you there's no me - or the other I believe...Strip away that layer and reveal your soul - you've got to give yourself up before you become whole..."

11.03.2005

Vivid & Strange...

And so describes my week...

In the midst of ineffective medicine, betrayal, declining splendor of what was considered invincible, lonliness, and all out unintelligible fuck ups, I type with a smile on my face...Sure, I want to laugh and cry all at the same time...Naturally, my beer doesn't taste as good as I endure a solo mission of OC viewing...Maybe I have been having incredibly disturbing nightmares that wake me in the wee hours of the morning in a cold sweat...So what if I felt like every single thing I touched today turned into a pile of shit...there is this awkward solace in knowing that tomorrow is my tabula rasa...

I am not meant to know why shitty things happen to good people...

...but i walk away with a reaffirmed understanding that in the end it all works out...

"And so castles made of sand melt into the sea...eventually"~ simply put...